2+0= 2 and 1+4= 14 (okay it equals 5...but the whole point is people are pushing this), so 02/14 = February 14th, which is valentines day? Some sorta of logic.
Well since it's February, it's only natural to bring this up. To start, my cousin is getting married... then I have a few friends talking about marriage. I actually had a friend show me the ring that her boyfriend will be proposing to her with because they have talked about getting engaged this year and married next year (she's my age.)
The funniest thing was when I asked to hang out with my cousins, we only found one weekend free and it was the 14th and 15th, so obviously I ask who is free then. One is busy the 15th and the other messages me being like "I will probably be busy the 14th... at least I hope so." (context: she has a boyfriend). My other cousin messages back with a smile and a heart while I am confused because I am thinking well why would you want her to not be able to hang out with us, so obviously I reply with "Why?" Just for her to retaliate with "It's Valentines day."
No. I am not being bitter It's so crazy how many of these things are happening. Being in the 20-somethings category means so many friends being married etc. (I'm pretty sure that being a christian has to do with it) It is SO SO SO exciting, but SO SO SO scary at the same time.
It's exciting because it is a new and exciting part of my friends'/cousins' lives but also my life! It's that time when all of the weddings are happening. It's also so scary for me because it really makes me ask the question of what about me? Being single is great, don't get me wrong, I do really really really really enjoy it and am not desperate to get into a relationship or anything but at the same time it makes me ask what do I want to do with my life, will I find love etc. blah blah blah blah.
So I decided that I will LOVE this year, my choice is to LOVE God, to LOVE others and LOVE myself. Is it pushing it, maybe?
I have totally imagined my life being actually "forever alone" but I have also discovered that I wouldn't be alone because I would be serving God. I want to live for Him and Him alone and not for a 'man'. Until I find someone who will serve with me together I can not imagine my life any other way.
But heck, let's be real I still want that ring WITH the band....p.s. this one would be nice too (and also marriage isn't all about just the wedding and the ring... though it's nice :D )
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So for now, while I don't have that "ring", I have this one...
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Though I do not wear this on my ring finger... I wear this on my index finger. It reminds me consistently of the infinite love of God and how He loved ME FIRST. It is a sort of promise ring to myself. My friend made fun of me when I told them I kept feeling my finger for my ring when I didn't have it on, she called me a 'divorced woman'. I thought about it for a bit and realized when I don't have God in my life... I truly am lost.
So this Valentine's Day (Singles Awareness day)/February/2014, think of the greatest love story of all.
1 John 4:19 We love because He first loved us. (ESV)
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (ESV)
Colossians 3:14 And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. (ESV)
So this year, I will embrace this year of love and choose to live a life of LOVE. Loving Jesus, Loving Others, Loving myself. (JOY: Jesus, Others, You). And I will obey God's commandments because I LOVE HIM.
Sometimes people ask me about christianity. It is a relationship. I have a relationship with Jesus Christ. I love Him. He loves me. He put me first, and I want to do the same thing. I know that if I don't follow him/listen to him (same as my parents) it will hurt them, because the things that He set out for me are for my own good because HE LOVED ME FIRST. So... if you love somebody... would you want to do things to hurt them?
Sorry for the long post, but this is because this is sorta kinda the GREATEST LOVE STORY OF ALL...except here we are caught up in a whole other world of what media and culture now define love.
So .... some food for thought :)
Until next time.
Thoughtfully yours,
C.C.
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